Date : Friday, June 04, 2010
Time : 12:56 AM
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currently i duno wat to say, i duno how i am feeling. hurt? betrayed? idk. i told u tat there no right or wrong in love and i meant it, but of coz, i will feel hurt too. maybe i will hate u, but i will try my best to control myself nt to, afterall, for a guy to break our frenship isnt worth it. when i first saw the conver, i felt like dying. if he could said tat to u, means he like u a bit too. i cant control u liking who also.like u say, ppl are selfish, u wan to have him too, wan to stead with him, then fine then, i shall not fight for him with u, i shall let u two be tgt, as wat the fate wan. it tat is fated, u, me or him, cant  change anything. let leaves all to fate. but seriously, i sorry tat i didnt trust u, but u shld know how i felt. i chose not to trust u, is becoz i am lying to myself, abt u, forging the conver, faking me, how i wish everything was a fake one, but apprently, it doesnt seems so.

why am i so useless? why am i losing everything? why cant i just be successful in just one thing? basketball, i am sucha noob, studies, i just passed all, passed nia, all cs. frensip was fine, except i hate my class and i fought with some frens, and for love, haiz, dun have to say, its all useless.

i am trying to forget everything tat seems to happen, forgiving u. treating everything as nth has happen before. but, its not easily. i forced myself to hate him, but for some reasons, i just cant. but i guess tat is love. love has no right or wrong, love has to be sacrifice for the person u loved, wasted my 1 year plus waiting for u, i shall give up, and stop wasting my time, but, can i?

fren: dun blame urself, i know i may hate u, but i dun wan to also, i jsut cant stop my heart from thinking too. i tink u also know how it felt when i knew the truth. u guys haven started yet, but i am already feeling very hurt. what will happen and how will i react when u two started? idk. but maybe knowing it now is better than knowing it later by my own. i know u told me cause u treated me as ur fren, thanks.