Date : Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Time : 5:05 AM
Title :

hey hi(: school has reopened and of cos, i back to emo kind. lols, hais, guess tat problems are coming to me recently? idk? hais. still nt made up with her and becos of this, i feel tat i drifteed with a lot of ppl in the team, especially someone. hais, i felt so neglected, i hate school, i hate trainings when i dun have many frens tat i can talk to. hais. but no choice, i wan to improve myself. hais.



i hate the way u made me jealous.why must u do it this way? why cant u believe tat i like u now and not him? u are making me very miserable by doing so.

Labels: why cant u jsut believe me?

Date : Friday, June 25, 2010
Time : 9:36 PM
Title :

photos up on facebook, my profile!

if u wanna find out wat happen during the camp

as u are not thr, u can go to lst blog to find out

url: lstheartsteo.blogspot.com

thanks all(:

its so awesome!

Date :
Time : 3:57 AM
Title :

hey guys, i am back(: haha, haven been posting cause i was away for a camp(: the camp was fun(: ^^ (Y)
camp was tiring, but yet fun, learnt to be responsible and learnt leadersship skills too(: haha
the class tat i was taking is 5 unity, with ms wang ying shan and ms trinity (:
the guys of the class was so cute, esp, edwin,rhames,zhengyu,keith,hongsheng,and many others more(:
the class was very unite and adorable, obedient too(: haha, i not gonna psot much, tired luh, so,, if u want to find out more abt the camp, u may wan to check out with lst,jiayu,eileen blog, or maybe later in the night i will post more(:
k, till here, bye(:

Date : Monday, June 21, 2010
Time : 8:38 AM
Title :

theres nth i could do

now,all i could was to

give up.

Date :
Time : 8:27 AM
Title :

hey hi(: sianxc, i hurt my leg, now it is sollen. -.- hais
today wake up at 10 meet siv mei they alll, then do project, then saw lia and jiahui, weiyong also, haha, then i slept, sorry ah, didnt help much, cause i am really not feeling well tat time. hais, then went school, was early. then training, still ok, haha my lay-ups and spin move improve le(: i am feeling so happy for it.haha. the sad thing is, friendly match on wed, my first friendly, but i cant go, wtf. hais, got camp ma. then nvm lor, then after training went mac with jacy and aini, haha laughed a lot. then jacy went off, seniors came(: then slacked, aini went off, haha slack till 8 ba with seniors, then went 527 , slacked went home at 9 40. lols, then found out my leg sollen :X wtf. haha k luh, my hw still nt done, doing ba, and my bag haven packed yet.

Date : Sunday, June 20, 2010
Time : 8:05 AM
Title :

i finally understand it all now.

Date : Thursday, June 17, 2010
Time : 9:48 AM
Title :

hello(:. today was like, i quite busy? morning 9 sth huiyee sms me and call me, say whr haven reached, and turns out tat she is the one tat forgets tat she change the timing. wtf. wake me up, then i continue sleeping till 11. then wake up, washed up, then went to school. then reached school do project, till 2 plus, then after that went to northvale, went to find weixin, zhenling and others, at isabel house. then after tat, went change, then accompany wendy to buy ice-cream. then after tat carried things, bbq started. the bbq still ok, i tried talking to huiying but she, hais., she wan me give her time, hais, k, i give, but duno how long will it take, hope it will be real soon over kays? i waiting for ur forgiveness. hais. then after tat played , chatted, with seniors,friends etc. haha, then lst called me, then listen lor. hais, chatted a while, kupt. then went on chatting then coach came. followed by a few seniors, they all very crazy one. haha, then after tat went to bbq things, then take pics. haha. i tink looks retarded, haha, pics shld be on facebook if they update it, hah. i didnt take pics, so, tats why. haha, k, cya, i am tired, recently i lacking of sleep. sleeping for only like 5 hours plus or 7 nia, hais, thinking of sleeping to noon tmr, but my mum say 12 plus need go back out liao, hais hais, hais





someone in kssbbg:, i am waiting for ur reply u know? hais, why cant u just forgive and forget? i duno why u cant, but i hope u will get over it soon kays?please,  i wan to get back the times when we chatted tgt, share secrets.i waiting for the time to come again, pls, get over it, i sincerity hope so, and i am sorry for wat i have done.):


Its, not possible between us i know. hais, it cant be possible tat u like me, even if u like me, hais, i alos cant get in relationship, but i know, u wont like, i duno why but i just forget u and treated u as my crush, but nvm, wat i wan is for u to be happy.(:

Labels: i waiting for ur reply...

Date : Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Time : 9:01 AM
Title :

sianzxc, goign 12 now. hais, recently duno wat got into, no mood. -.-, hais, totally no mood lor. hais hais, and is totally no mood one. -.-hais, becoz of this, i offended two of mine frens, no, three. hais, why like tat sia? hais, made up with one of them, the other two i duno. one seems to have made up, but also at the same while seems nt to have made up. hais, the other one, didnt even wan to reply my msg. hais, i hate myself luh, fuck u luh kohqin, go die better right, stay here for wat? nabei. hais, FML luh, hais hais, tmr got team BBQ but duno how go face them sia. hais face them?! omg, hais hais, i confirm wil feel damn extra one. wtf. ahhh!!! hais hais! sianxc. hais,.. but got one thing made me happy.

I PATCHED WITH MELISSA TAN? FEELS HAPPY FOR US RIGHT? THANKS, HAHA

Date : Monday, June 14, 2010
Time : 10:35 AM
Title :

yo guys, sianxc, playing word search with relatives. at least i didnt come the last. and hope i dun(: haha, seriously bored now.. tmr still need go school for maths project. ): sianxc lor. hais, today i went woodlands, tmr going to farm mart i tink. with relatives. sorry arh guys, for nt going to play badminton with u all, they just come out, i just knew tat  they just  came to singapore -.-, sorry guys, not i dun wan play with u all, but i cant. sorry. and LST, I DIDNT PANG SEH U . stop saying i pang seh u, i nvr even promise u in the first place  -.-
ending here.
koh qin

Date : Sunday, June 13, 2010
Time : 6:51 AM
Title :

sianxc, nvr update for quite long le, aiya, it the same , isnt it? no one tag. -.- lo, currently feelign weird, very weird. hais. last time this feeling is because u nvr msg me, but since tat time, i didnt really care much. but recently its back. it is becoz i like __________ now? omg, hope not. i dun wanna fall for two person at the same time. hais. i feeling bored now, who can cheer me up? talk to me? and get the feeling out?! hais. hais, i hate you luh, get out of my life luh.

Date : Thursday, June 10, 2010
Time : 7:06 AM
Title :

hello(: hah, sian la, recently very sian. haiz. waiting for the camp to come.(:
haha, haiz, i duno if i shld go on sat sia. haiz.

Date : Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Time : 9:04 AM
Title :

CAN I JUST LIKE...... DIE?

Date : Saturday, June 05, 2010
Time : 9:11 AM
Title :

hi(: its 12 plus now, sian lor, today whole day nvr go out. aww... sian, lol, so nth post also. haiz. haiz. sian la. sianxcz, hope tmr can play basketball

Date : Friday, June 04, 2010
Time : 12:56 AM
Title :

currently i duno wat to say, i duno how i am feeling. hurt? betrayed? idk. i told u tat there no right or wrong in love and i meant it, but of coz, i will feel hurt too. maybe i will hate u, but i will try my best to control myself nt to, afterall, for a guy to break our frenship isnt worth it. when i first saw the conver, i felt like dying. if he could said tat to u, means he like u a bit too. i cant control u liking who also.like u say, ppl are selfish, u wan to have him too, wan to stead with him, then fine then, i shall not fight for him with u, i shall let u two be tgt, as wat the fate wan. it tat is fated, u, me or him, cant  change anything. let leaves all to fate. but seriously, i sorry tat i didnt trust u, but u shld know how i felt. i chose not to trust u, is becoz i am lying to myself, abt u, forging the conver, faking me, how i wish everything was a fake one, but apprently, it doesnt seems so.

why am i so useless? why am i losing everything? why cant i just be successful in just one thing? basketball, i am sucha noob, studies, i just passed all, passed nia, all cs. frensip was fine, except i hate my class and i fought with some frens, and for love, haiz, dun have to say, its all useless.

i am trying to forget everything tat seems to happen, forgiving u. treating everything as nth has happen before. but, its not easily. i forced myself to hate him, but for some reasons, i just cant. but i guess tat is love. love has no right or wrong, love has to be sacrifice for the person u loved, wasted my 1 year plus waiting for u, i shall give up, and stop wasting my time, but, can i?

fren: dun blame urself, i know i may hate u, but i dun wan to also, i jsut cant stop my heart from thinking too. i tink u also know how it felt when i knew the truth. u guys haven started yet, but i am already feeling very hurt. what will happen and how will i react when u two started? idk. but maybe knowing it now is better than knowing it later by my own. i know u told me cause u treated me as ur fren, thanks.

Date : Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Time : 8:16 PM
Title :

hi(:, yesterday went back grps, chatted saw a lot of ppl. haha, hearts them la.then went slacking with lst, jiayu and some others. thn slack till half way, i went off to kranji, actually wan shoot balls de, but then, haiz, i got thr, they going off liao, then went slacking with them at 517, hah, then until 6 plus, went off with huiying, then slacked at playground at fajar till 8 plus, got home,bath, use com(;
then today went for oral, flung it i tink. haha. nvm la, then go home with huiying, then bath, use com lor, lol

haiz. girl, like i say, i wont blame u,  so dun blame urself too. maybe this is better than me? maybe u two are fated to be together? since he willing to try to like u, and u are willing to wait, this is good. i wish u two could be together and last long. jiayou yea?

Date : Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Time : 8:09 AM
Title :

hihihi(: haha my muscle aching like hell now, nvm la, shall say wat i did today. woke up today at 10 plus? hah late leh. but someone later than me.:P haha, then waash up use com, watch tv etc. then 1 35 went to fajar lrt meet huiying then went school for training. Training was normal, got pt. make my leg so pain now. haiz. then shoot, my underbaskets damn lan. duno if going back tmr or not. haiz, see how lor. then training ended quite early. 6 20 to 6 30, aroundd thr la.hah then went limbang, accompany weixin buy bubble, got call from mum say they at woodlands, nt at home, so i didnt went home, went to mac, to slacked with zhenling, shermaine and some others, then after tat, went back home with huiying, slacked at fajar basketball court the playground there, shared a lot of things(: i keep disiao-ing her, haha but playing nia, haha i tink she knows tat too. hehe. haha we about 8 plus reached thr, if i nt wrong la. then slacked till 9 plus haha the 1 hour flew very fast. hehe. then at 9 15, she went home. i am sort of emo-ing thr, so sat there for 10 min, almost cried when i tot of something, haiz forget it, then reached home, use com lor.